Before I start with anything ~ Sho-kun, happy birthday !!!!! May your life is blessed with the happiness~

And to everyone here ~ Happy New Year 2022 !
Congratulation for surviving a year without ARASHI ( i mean a year into ARASHI hiatus) ~
I want to pat myself also for surviving ~ =)
It was really hard ~ even to myself

It have been a month into 2022
To be honest I plan to take thing slowly in term of fangirling and focus more on my messy life for this year~
That's my plan ~ although I'm don't know how to execute it ~ LOL ( poorly planning )
But please wish me luck

to those of you who find happiness in other things beside ARASHI ~ congratulation.
Don't feel bad~ I was so happy to see you guys happy. I think that's what our beloved 5 think also.

To those of you who still not find happiness anything other then ARASHI ~ You are not alone ~ let's survive together =)

To Arashi member, thank you for always update about yourselves and riida in 2021. Thank you for always bring happiness with your warm gesture in variety, dramas, films and so on despite your hiatus~

Thank you for always been there, and I'm so sorry if I as a fans can't do much to support you

the most important thing ~ THANK YOU FOR ALLOW US ADDRESSING YOU AS ARASHI
~and thank you for keep the FC
~it's mean a lot for me TT TT TT TT TT

THANK YOU

You know, I will here waiting for you to be as 5 again, although the chance is slim,
and even if it takes forever ~ because for me, you guys are among the best thing that happen in my life ~ Oni-chan, iro iro arigato,ne. De ai ni yokatta. ARASHI DAIIIIIISUKI !


With this, I want to conclude this e-diary that I write monthly since December 2020


Take care ~ until we meet again ~ sayonara~

Hi, me again ~ it's November 2021 ` and this is my feeling

It have been a year since I write in this ejournal ~every month without a fail. Since Arashi's hiatus. See Arashi, what you able manage to make me do 😅

But January 2022 will be the last entry. I will stop it ~ for good. Maybe sometimes random entry ~ hahaha.

This ain’t News Zero, but #Arashi’s Sakurai Sho has a special announcement for Malaysian Arashian! 😘❤

P.S. MinMin hopes we can also get a special performance of Rolling Days in Malaysia one day, pleaseeee. 🥺 #TontondiTGV 🎟️ https://t.co/aSnHJAo7vi pic.twitter.com/a6Ic3v2psq

— TGV Cinemas | #TontondiTGV 🇲🇾 (@TGVCinemas) November 2, 2021

On 3/11/2021 - Dolby Screening In Japan and Sho's mention MALAYSIA. Sho, I'm so grateful ~ terima kasih TTTT

 On 13/11/2021

Thank You @arashi5official @arashi_livefilm

With love ~ Malaysia fans
😊🇲🇾💕💙❤️💚💛💜#ARASHI#RecordofMemories#RecordofMemoriesMalaysia #ThankYouARASHI#TerimaKasihARASHI pic.twitter.com/b3M42U9lQl

— gnubutnes 🇲🇾 (@gnubutnes) November 13, 2021

IT WILL START SOON !
😊💙❤️💚💛💜🇲🇾💕#RecordofMemories#RecordofMemoriesMALAYSIA#ARASHI pic.twitter.com/dwRKVooPuj

— gnubutnes 🇲🇾 (@gnubutnes) November 13, 2021

The date that I will remember ~ 1st day Record of Memories Screening in Malaysia !
to be honest me and my sister was pretty excited ~ like went we go to Japan in April 2019. We buy a new outfit and eveything just to attend the screening. But since it was A BIG DAY  I decide, I will wear the same outfit when I attend 5x20 and bring the same penlight and the same uchiwa that I modified for ARAFES 2020.

2019 - 5x20 Concert Tokyo, Japan

2021 - Record of Memories, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia#ARASHI#fangirlmoment #ArashiAnniversaryTour5x20 pic.twitter.com/CZHUZq3cja

— gnubutnes 🇲🇾 (@gnubutnes) November 13, 2021

KLCC it's not a strange place for me. It was a place that hold a memory for me during my undergraduate study. It was the place where I watch my first movie in cinema. It was a place that I hang a lot with my friends ~ during my teenage year ~ and surprisingly when my post graduate studies ~

Plus is a place where J want to go if he come to Malaysia ( J, i will remember this forever) =)

and ~ I shoot the fan virtual choir last year before Arashi hiatus, the NHK Kite and TIAL homework at KLCC !




So, when my local cinema announce they will screen RoM at KLCC ~ I'm over the moon !
Although I'm a bit  sad. No dolby is there or anywhere at the same cinema chain at KL
But it's okay.

I'm  able to attend 13/11/2021, 14/11/2021 and 26/11/2021 screening. I meet a lot of Arashian. Some I know during previous JetStorm. Some I become friend at twitter  but never have a chance meeting in real life. I'm so sorry I'm unable to say hi to all of you although I plan to do so. Gomenasai.  I got a lot of freebies. Thank you =)

Free gift including mine and other fellow Malaysian ARASHIAN

Thank you for the freebies ~
You guys are AWESOME

😊💕💕💕💕💕💙❤️💚💛💜#RecordofMemoriesMALAYSIA pic.twitter.com/PUnCZv3M90

— gnubutnes 🇲🇾 (@gnubutnes) November 13, 2021

Thank you fellow Malaysian Arashi
for your kindness. Someone even bake the cookies for Oh-chan birthday! ~

Thank you #Arashi#RecordofMemories#RecordofMemoriesMalaysia pic.twitter.com/r3iAMiHRk6

— gnubutnes 🇲🇾 (@gnubutnes) November 26, 2021

All is special. but the most special is during Oh-chan birthday! Happy birthday Ohno-kun. Thank you for nice surprise on November =)

ARASHIANS! Ready to hit the floor today? 🌈

Let us take you faraway with the final screening of #RecordofMemories on Riida’s special day! 🥳🎂

P.S. Don't miss the #ARASHI digital posters - you might have to wait a while, but it'll take less patience than fishing for sure! 😉💙 pic.twitter.com/uR5X7IZ4No

— TGV Cinemas | #TontondiTGV 🇲🇾 (@TGVCinemas) November 26, 2021

I will not do a review of movie here. And this my final though.

ARASHI DOING THIS TO MAKE ARASHIAN HAPPY IN THE IMPORTANT DATE OF FANDOM DURING THEIR OFFICIAL HIATUS


You want us out of our cave. Meeting friends with a same friend. Singing with our heart. Make a happy memories which we did !

#ARASHI For Dreams!!!

Minmin tak boleh move on lagi, serious you guys were so happening last night! #ArashiMY @arashi5official #RecordofMemories Anniversary Tour #5x20FILM @arashi_livefilm 💙❤️💚💛💜 https://t.co/UtDc6EFhG5 pic.twitter.com/EYGh5Z6l3R

— TGV Cinemas | #TontondiTGV 🇲🇾 (@TGVCinemas) November 14, 2021

Thank you riida ~ i have a reason to enjoy sweet 😊

I hope you have a blast in your birthday ~

Thank you for make Arashi fan happy today.@arashi5official . And I hope you have a happy day ahead too

Lots of love from Malaysia fans
😊💙❤️💚💛💜 pic.twitter.com/yRdUNYIdMK

— gnubutnes 🇲🇾 (@gnubutnes) November 26, 2021

You can say otherwise Arashi. This is too obvious ~ okay maybe it was because you guys want  to buy Oh-chan a boat 😅
But I love you.  Really. Nobody love Arashi and Arashian more that you ~ thats's for sure.

北の大地で温かく迎えて頂きました！ホットホット！ホットホット！
翔 pic.twitter.com/HN6y3a6n57

— ARASHI (@arashi5official) November 26, 2021

メンバーの皆様！
そしてファンの皆様！！
I love you❤️
智

— ARASHI (@arashi5official) November 26, 2021

I'm glad that all of you have a long list of jobs to do during hiatus .

 I'm so sorry, I'm unable to catch up with everything. There is 4 of you. It was hard for me to follow ~ gomenasai. I will try  with my own pace ~

But most important thing, i hope you will surround with happiness  too, please take care your health and family.


Cheers



Love love for you

Malaysia 30/11/2021 11.59AM

Arashi ~ I miss THEM, being THEM around THEM !


*sigh*

Hi, me again with my randomness


It's almost 3 month since Arashi into hiatus~

'I don't miss them at all,
not even a single bit,
I don't even cry'


.......you think?


The answer is NO !
I MISS THEM A LOT !!!!!!


But one thing for sure, Arashi still made me smile even during their hiatus ~ alhough while me crying ~ i feel so weird ~ hahaha

But that's my feeling ~ During Digital Arashi Exhibition Journey, or even during last episode of Arashi's Diary Voyage or when Nino-hime was born in this beautiful word or even during my random daily days.


This month to be honest in real life I'm so busy with many thing ~ I'm moving out, I'm having my COVID -19 vaccination, and more things that happen ~

I though I'm busy enough ~ but Arashi thank you for always accompany me with your music~
i'm sorry if I can't fangurling enough ~ but thank you~


That's my though ~ it always my pleasure to meet you, Arashi ~


3 month into hiatus ~ I wonder what is your feeling ~
- Oh-chan?
- Sho-kun ?
- Aiba- chan ?
- Nino-san?
- Jun-kun?


Whatever it is ~ please be happy ~ I hope you enjoy doing things that you do now ~
Please be safe~


I hope one day we will meet again ~


I love you ~
I miss you ~


gnubutnes
4.19am
Malaysia

Nothing more, nothing less......

It has been 13 days since Arashi's hiatus. It's already feel forever for me. I don't know it hits me this hard.

Everything in my life now ~ feel bitter ~ like when you drink that bitter medicine.

Anything and everything ~ because it makes me remember Arashi
Even music
At one point I can't even listen to Japanese song ~ because it makes me miss Arashi more~
Yes, it's not even Arashi song ~ I was weird right?


There are many time I tried to post in LJ, many times, many draft ~ but no ~ I fail tremendously.
I'm not even sure if I manage to post this'
But I try

What I do now ~
I listen more to Malaysia old songs,
I listen to my favorite Japanese song
I listen to Arashi's
it's sort of therapy
for me

I'm still not restarting watching old their variety show
I just can't
VS Damashi and The Show chan show that replacing Shiyagare and VS Arashi - I try to follow at my own pace
Same for regular other member show ~ even previously I watch them regularly
Sometimes I watch on real time ~ sometimes I don't
The excitement ? ~ .............I'm trying my very best, but sometimes I'm just hopeless fan TT~

I think what my heart want now is time for alone, time for grieving
That in fact Arashi is entering their hiatus
That in fact Arashi's all member is pursuing their own way
I need to come to the term myself
I still hako -oshi Arashi ~ I still love all member~ but i need time ~


To Arashi -san,
To Ohno-san, Sho-san, Aiba-san, Nino-san, Matsumoto-san~

I'm still believe to your promise that you guys will make a come back later
I'm so sorry that I such a mess fan of your ~ still crying while you really you give your best out there.
I'm so sorry ~ but please give me time, ne ~
I really hope even in hiatus you guys can allow us to call you Arashi....
and I really hope you guys introduce yourself as Arashi
especially to those that still active
because even you guys on hiatus, but you guys still Arashi,
Even when you doing solo job
Please don't disassociate yourself with ARASHI ~ because it will definately hurt me more ~
Once a while I hope you can update your ARASHI SNS with your solo project ~ because for me and other fans of yours ~
you're still and will be Arashi
No matter where you are
No matter what you do


This is just my hope as a fan of yours


I maybe feel worse with your hiatus ~ but I can't stop worrying about you the most ~
at this era ~ where the world is so challenging ~
Stay safe, stay healty, be happy whatever you do

Please don't worry about me or other fans
We'll be okay
After all ~

'Nakinagara umarete kita bokutachi wa tabun pinchi ni tsuyoi'
We were born while crying but we're probably strong in pinch


We will waiting for you
Let's go through this together



Love love for you

gnubutnes
13th January 2021 @ 5.06am

Dear me 5 year ago,

Thank you for your wishes....i totally forget about you. There is a lot of thing I want to convey to you....

But 1st....

I'm still their fan.... I'm still Arashi fan !!! I'm still Arashian !!!

I already  go to Japan !
I already attend their concert !
....but my Japanese still suck ! It maybe just an accuse, but I'm sorry I don't have a time....

I promise to find a time........gomen


The 5  dork that you mention.... they still dork !!! But they have become a good men. You will not believe it !! But in 2020 they still here...with us T T TT TT TT



But....but....they will have hiatus at the end of this year....31 December 2020. Long story become short - Riida want to rest ! Have his long vacation....maybe he want to go to  fishing a lot....

But no need to worry so much TT TT TT They promise they will make a comeback....they look honest. I believe in them !


In 2020...

They even have social media...you name it...they have youtube....they have very updated Insta  every Tuesday and Saturday and sometime IG live !!!.





They are in Twitter, Tikktok, Facebook, Netflix.......they are everywhere !!!! you can download their  music in spotify....


Recently they do live streaming  concert via youtube.....even Johnny Jimusho have their own Youtube channel



..... and you know...... that smoll Nino... yes....Ninomiya Kazunari.... HE ALREADY MARRIED !!!!!! But he is still the bratty that love games...and introvert......I hope he will be happy forever and ever =)




Jun-kun.....he now showing us his kindness side more.....he less stoic now compare to last time......he more gentleman than he used to be.....you know, now there are a lot of people that approve his talent as concert master.....ureshiii



Sho-kun still having his news zero and live his live as usual......he still workholic if you asked me... He still Arashi mom...he pull them together when riida inform they he want to quit.....he was awesome, dessho TT TT TT



Riida....have a license.....BOAT license...........he now is offical FISHING BOAT CAPTAIN ..... at Ohnomaru. He look more compose now after telling the fan about hiatus !!!



Aiba....is still our sunshine.....but recently...his mentor....Shimura Ken-san just passed away due to COVID-19. I know he still sad...but he try his best to smile.....He still our sunshine ...he still strong



Unbelievable, right.....

I still also still can't believe it until this day  TT TT TT TT TT


There is still a lot unbelievable thing that happen.....
Johnny-san passed away last year.... and now ......
the world facing pandemic from new corona virus....COVID-19...it effect not only me....but everyone all around the world.......including Arashi!  even Tokyo Olympic 2020 was post poned to 2021.  Arashi just upload Wash your hand song tutorial  in their social media. i will share with you later......






Today, Japan goverment announce emergency to 7 province including Tokyo and Chiba to fight the virus.  As for Malaysia , we in 21th day on our Restriction Movement Order...but you still need to work any way

I hope our world will heal sooner....

for the pass 5 years...

Yes....I'm happy....both in RL and my life as Arashian. i still single anyway....

You know Arashi love us too much.....they will make a comeback...and I will wait.... Don't  worry I think I will love them forever.



I think that all the thing that I want to report to you....but it's unbeliavable right.... till we meet again in the future....

I'm signing out....bye

P/S: LJ is still here....many community / account had been hiatus...but it still there =)



Sincerly,
Ju
7/4/2020 @ 8.45pm
Malaysia

Assalamualaikum and hi,

This is my first entry for this year – 2020. I was toshi onna for this year.
First 3 month in this year feel so long….. a lot of thing happen worldwide…… the most devastating one of course COVID-19

The novel corona virus originated from Wuhan , China causing pendemic worldwide… it effect not only me, but to my family, closed friend, Arashi, Japan, Olympic…………….it effect every single person on earth that I know.....all the plan and dreams  Different country have different approach to tackle this pandemic….many country took it for granted until it come to worse……and that was very devastated. Now, until this writing….most of the countries in this world make a lockdown, quarantine, restricted movement control, blocking international traveller in hope to control the disease.



Many Malaysian can relate with me…..since we young….we looking forward to this year actually. It was my country dream to become a developed country by year 2020 – we call it as WAWASAN 2020 or in English VISION 2020. We have a song for this with the same name. We always sang it during morning assembly.

WAWASAN 2020




So….since young, I always looking forward to this year…2020. Sadly, due to some some political thing happen….they change the aim to 2050 insted of 2020….but I still looking forward to the Year 2020.

Then, things happen…Tokyo was choose to become host for Olympic 2020 in summer. I was so glad…although I’m not Japanese…. Then to know my favourite artist from the land of rising sun, ARASHI also looking forward to it…make me happy………..until they announce they plan for hiatus by 31st of December 2020.
To conclude - It was the year that I wait for so long - year 2020.


'Every cloud has a silver lining'



'明けない夜はないよ
Akenai yoru wa nai yo
There aren't any nights that won't open to morning'



Yes… I’m feel sad and hopeless 3 month into Year 2020…but i know it will not always difficult time. Sometimes you up…but sometimes you down….What make this different at this time is we as a part of this world facing the same enemy… COVID-19. We need to stay stronger and protect each other from the invincible enemy….. hand washing, social distancing, quarantine , stay home it what we must do to protect each other…and pray that the world will become a better place again. The sun will shine again.

To Arashi-san, the time is running fast…….. with all the cancellled plan….. I’m not blaming you at all. It is not your fault. You already try your best to deliver to fans…and for that I’m feel so thankful…. I can feel your love to us…the fans. I still cannot figure out how to say goodbye to you on end of this year…….because I love you to much…..but what I want to say is….don’t worry about it….about my feeling...... because even I can’t help to feeling like this….so, it’s okay TT TT TT TT TT.

I’m proud to be your fans. 12 years ago...or now....I still proud Arashian =)




Thank you for reading this entry….i love you 💙❤💚💛💜


1130am
1st April 2020
Malaysia

Hi, me again. I don't know where to start. My live as Arashian for past 2 week........is CRAZY !!!! Hahaha....
ARASHI WAS IN SOCIAL MEDIA !!!!!!!!! You name it....

luckily not in LJ. I have an urge to put link to their official account here...but I will not do that- to protect LJ fandom.


It start on 2019.10.09
Arashi put a "BOMB" in Youtube
They put their 5 MVs - ARaSHi, Love so Sweet, Happiness, Truth, Monster
I basicly have mental breakdown during that day...I start my live as Arashian in youtube 11 years agob
This make me sooooo emotional TT

P/S : Gosh... i miss the word PV....why they using MV ??? TTTTTTT  I cannot brain

Some of fan manage to find the account that using same account in youtube across other SNS but it was still private and create the same date with the official youtube account.


2019.11.03
Well, most Arashian anticipating this date. Not only this date is arashi CD debut date. But also we know Arashi will announce their offical SNS account ><

But Arashi is not Arashi without causing uproar and STORM !!!!!
They are not you average group

Yes... they announce their SNS account through YOUTUBE LIVE STREAMING !!!!!!!!
...and they drop all their 64 singles ( without B side ) in MUSIC STREAMING SITE !!!!!!
they release digital single with HD MV in YOUTUBE [Turning Up] and available in music streaming !!!

plus...... JETSTORM - Jakarta-Singapore- Bangkok- Taipei
plus....korikutsu concert before Olympic !!! and Beijing Concert !!!

Hahaha... i never had this bad mental breakdown as Arashian. It was so weird feeling to see Arashi in their offical SNS account...like...am I not dreaming???
Although I'm over the cloud.... but still a part of me worry that Arashi might getting hurt with the SNS.... TT TT TT
I'm so overwhelm

2019.11.09

The historic date - for Arashi and Arashian. THEY PERFORM FOR EMPEROR ENTHROMENT !!!
[Journey of Harmony] was beautiful !!! and Arashi vocal was great TT TT TT
After the performance they go in their Private Jet  for JETSTORM and constantly update the progress in their SNS
What the era that we live in !!!

I manage to go to Singapore with other Malaysian Arashian  in 1 day bus trip to see Arashi with my younger sister .... but I was at the back and can't see them properly...but I get to know my fellow Malaysian Arashian more. And we a featuring across news and magazine ><

2019.11.11
NINO ANNOUNCE MARRIAGE !!!
yes...our tiny smoll looking nino is THE 1ST ARASHI MEMBER THAT GETTING MARRY !!!
Omedetou NINO  !!!
and the ugly truth of SNS is come to surface .....I don't wanna talk about it...
while MJ get the hype  for the bathroom accident when in JetStorm Taipei interview ><
and Aiba with handwriting notes at his hand...hahahhahaha


since then arashi constantly update their SNS....... like frequently. There is no doubt there is SNS / propaganda Department in Johnnys Headquater just for Arashi.....hahahahha


so.....my final though...

I'm so happy Arashi was getting SNS and stream their music in music streaming. Me 10 years ago was dream that this moment will come. During my years as Arashian, I have this urge to introduce Arashi to the world,,,, but I don't have official reference material to guide the world to Arashi.
....and now I don't have that problem....><

I think Arashi was do the think...what the effect that SNS will cause them into... for the good and for the worse.
and Nino only marry after they introduce their SNS...TT TT TT
although some comment were very harsh...but  i think they anticipate it. TT TT TT TT TT TT TT

So my live as Arashian change....instead wondering around in LJ and twitter, I'm getting an account in Instagram and Spotify.
I get tiktok account but uninstall it after 2 week.. LOL... i can't stand the constant notification for non arashi related account ...hahahahaha
I already have FB.. so i just follow them...naturally
and I never being this busy as Arashian.
I'm still adapt to this new change and try to find balance in my daily live LOL
that was hard.....hahahahahha.....

So...with arashi starting fresh in the world of SNS...I'm pleged to support them as Arashian...
Thank you Arashi for validate the international fan existance  TT TT TT TT

I feel light after I wrote down my though...hahaha...
Thank you for reading.... bye bye =)


gnubutnes
2019.11.20
1.49am Malaysia