December feeling 2020 ~ TT TT TT TT TT

[gnubutnes]

* DON'T READ ~ it just a cry session TT TT TT TT TT




Assalamualaikum and Hi,

Nothing ~ just me with random talk

Arashi ~ the D-date is in the corner. I can't help myself to crying every day since the December is coming ~ I know deep in my heart ~ ARASHI-san trying their very best to cheer up the fans ~ with incoming online concert ~

But i can't help for myself ~ to feel this sadness ~ T T

Right now while writing this entry ~ I'm crying TT. I can't even see what I'm writing on the screen TT TT TT TT TT TT TT TT

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12 years ~ is a long period ~ 12 years I have been their fans ~ from when I was a poor student ~ until now ~ have a stable jobs ~ 12 years is a loooong period ~ and i can't imagine my live without them.

There is many time ~ i feel i'm accepting the fate by god ~ but then again ~ here I am in my loop of sadness ~ TT TT TT TT TT

To be honest, my old me want to sent them with a smile ~ like Sho said in the Voyage ~ let's smile till the end ~ but at this point ~ i don't know whether I will strong enough to do that.

I hope I strong enough when the moment come ~ TT

i hate this feeling ~ I know I should strong. There is less than a month to spend with them ~ i know I should appreciate every second that leave ~ but but but ~ TT TT TT


I know my feeling now is normal ~ i will missing something that I really love for a long time soon~ ARASHI
so, this reaction is normal ~ I know at some point I will okay ~ but not tonight TT TT TT TT TT


....................i think I will just crying again ~ until I sleep ~


TT TT TT TT TT ~ bye for now ~ TT TT TT TT