January 2021 - my feeling

Nothing more, nothing less......

It has been 13 days since Arashi's hiatus. It's already feel forever for me. I don't know it hits me this hard.

Everything in my life now ~ feel bitter ~ like when you drink that bitter medicine.

Anything and everything ~ because it makes me remember Arashi
Even music
At one point I can't even listen to Japanese song ~ because it makes me miss Arashi more~
Yes, it's not even Arashi song ~ I was weird right?


There are many time I tried to post in LJ, many times, many draft ~ but no ~ I fail tremendously.
I'm not even sure if I manage to post this'
But I try

What I do now ~
I listen more to Malaysia old songs,
I listen to my favorite Japanese song
I listen to Arashi's
it's sort of therapy
for me

I'm still not restarting watching old their variety show
I just can't
VS Damashi and The Show chan show that replacing Shiyagare and VS Arashi - I try to follow at my own pace
Same for regular other member show ~ even previously I watch them regularly
Sometimes I watch on real time ~ sometimes I don't
The excitement ? ~ .............I'm trying my very best, but sometimes I'm just hopeless fan TT~

I think what my heart want now is time for alone, time for grieving
That in fact Arashi is entering their hiatus
That in fact Arashi's all member is pursuing their own way
I need to come to the term myself
I still hako -oshi Arashi ~ I still love all member~ but i need time ~


To Arashi -san,
To Ohno-san, Sho-san, Aiba-san, Nino-san, Matsumoto-san~

I'm still believe to your promise that you guys will make a come back later
I'm so sorry that I such a mess fan of your ~ still crying while you really you give your best out there.
I'm so sorry ~ but please give me time, ne ~
I really hope even in hiatus you guys can allow us to call you Arashi....
and I really hope you guys introduce yourself as Arashi
especially to those that still active
because even you guys on hiatus, but you guys still Arashi,
Even when you doing solo job
Please don't disassociate yourself with ARASHI ~ because it will definately hurt me more ~
Once a while I hope you can update your ARASHI SNS with your solo project ~ because for me and other fans of yours ~
you're still and will be Arashi
No matter where you are
No matter what you do


This is just my hope as a fan of yours


I maybe feel worse with your hiatus ~ but I can't stop worrying about you the most ~
at this era ~ where the world is so challenging ~
Stay safe, stay healty, be happy whatever you do

Please don't worry about me or other fans
We'll be okay
After all ~

'Nakinagara umarete kita bokutachi wa tabun pinchi ni tsuyoi'
We were born while crying but we're probably strong in pinch


We will waiting for you
Let's go through this together



Love love for you

gnubutnes
13th January 2021 @ 5.06am